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So much left unsaid. A lifetime of memory fades My heart left wrenched for thought Something lost but not missed Dreams that haunt The depths of my soul Time taken my spirit branded Never again the same The doubt The fear of myself Who am I to be trusted And when is wisdom true and safe again like i once knew Longing for solitude and a place of peace Facing confusion Facing my fears.

It has been far too long...

...since I have updated here. My life is busy. I could sit here and type it all out but there is not enough time and I have to go to bed in a few minutes. What I can say is this...life has taken some very unexpected changes in the last year. I didn't blog about it because it was incredibly personal & challenging at the same time.

However I'm on the brighter side of a huge life transition now, that being a divorce. An ugly word at the very least but in this case something that was necessary for all parties involved. My kids are doing good, as good as can be expected, but are very happy and when they do bring up the difficulties in changes we talk as much as we need too.

When it all ended last year, I took up guitar lessons, and decided to become a certified personal trainer. As of this week I have started my first job.

The biggest news is I have met someone very special to me. I guess you could say the desires of my heart have been fulfilled with an amazing man who not only is good to me and my kids, but tells me i'm beautiful every single day. I am cherished,...I cannot begin to tell you what an amazing feeling that is. He is incredibly funny, outgoing & a leader for our family. I say our family because we are getting married this year...I am so happy!!! :)

Thats all for now, I'll try and update sometime in the near future, maybe some pics, and maybe some more details when time allows <3