How to cut thru steel.

Journey to a thousand ends
a vision made so clear
what once I knew now how it ends
now sure of where I walk

the hallowness inside the shell
these walls were made of steel
somehow a torch has taken too
the breaking of the seal

this flame that burns it came to me
an unexpected gift
my heart not sure of it at first
but now I see the warmth

my mind it beckons me to wake
it cautions me in thought
to open that which never has
and give what time has lost

i've longed for this a thousand years
if years were kept in beats
to speak that which my heart sings now
is more than words can bring

i can't go back, not turn away
from that which i've been called
this torch it burns and lights a way
and cracks the steel for love


~CAS

Learning to learn again.

Wow, my brain hurts lol

I've finished nearly 2 units thus far, the first was PAINFUL to put it mildly. Part of it was the way they suggested learning the material does not work for me, so between that and a bunch of terms i am completely unfamiliar with, it took me a whole lot longer than I had anticipated.

Nevertheless, I now feel i understand my way of doing it and the second unit has been much quicker (plus im more familiar with a lot of the terms, mainly stuff i learned in biology/anatomy in HS).

Im hoping to be done before Success school in mid August.

Hippocrates somewhere around 400 B.C....

"Eating alone will not keep a man well: he must also take exercise. For food and exercise, while possesing opposite qualities, yet work together to produce health....and it is necessary, as it appears , to discern the power of various exercises, both natural exercises and artificial, to know which of them tends to increase flesh and which to lessen it; and not only this, but also to proportion exercise to bulk of food, to the consitution of the patient, to the age of the individual..."

ISSA certified bound!

Ordered my certificate training course today, I am STOKED!!!!

Once this is complete I plan to complete the separate course on nutrition, because lets face it...great healthy bodies are made in the kitchen ;)

I'm so super essssited LOL....this is the start of something really great for me <3

And FTR close friends will still get free advice...others, beware its gonna cost ya LOL,...hope you like your bootcamp extra saucy and with results ;)

restless heart ~ by Chris Stevens

Oh restless heart
speak to me
of lessons learned
and those to come

fall far from me
the pain that seeks
to smoother what
lies beneath

the truth beckons fates
of which this path leads
i follow
heart longing

The dream in my heart
never to cease
ill never give up
that which it longs for

hold me now
tear down that wall
an interfacing
of death and life

be still my sacred
you need not jump
fools call
you will not answer

remain pure metal
keep the path
it leads to peace
a tranquil full heart

There must be more
than my eyes behold
to gain truth
you must give it


May 11, 2011

Red - Feed the machine lyrics

Turn around, they might be watching
And you'll never disappoint them
Hide your innocence before they see right through
... you mustn't disappoint them

You need the danger just to feel your heart beat
You need to die just to find your identity
You need the knife just to know that you can bleed
You need the pain now just to feel anything

We fall in line, we live the lie
Give up, give up and feed the machine
It grows inside, nowhere to hide
Give up, give up and feed the machine
... Give up, give up and feed the machine

They pull you faster, the cadence calling
And you never fall behind
So choose a face, you're only crawling now
You mustn't fall behind

You need another death just to have a life to save
You need a master just so you can beg
You need a light just because you're so afraid

Sleep, shhh, go back to sleep
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up


Wake up, wake up and kill the machine
Wake up, wake up and kill the machine
Wake up, wake up and kill the machine

Written 4-24-11 Hudson, MI

Do we really control anything?
Where does choice begin?
In youth we are what they make us...some find this awakening early, some very late.
I dont want regrets.
The choices ahead are like stones crushing a thin glass soul.
So much has played a part in where I now stand. Does one grip the doubt? strangle the wahat ifs? or embrace them like beacons of truth?
So much can be said for life and death. A curse or a blessing I know not which. I want to feel every moment...the cold winter wind on my skin, the burn of fire on my fingertips, the damp of a rain puddle on my toes, the heartbeat of s child, the smile of a person wise with years.
I look back and forth unable to tell where I came from the incapable of knowing where to head.
Feeling blessed.
Life is a blessing!
If nothing else comes my way I stand thankful for breath & spirit.
I will find my courage, and I know that someday that which my heart longs for will be fullfilled.